FOMO= Fear Of Missing Out
I’ve suffered from FOMO for a long time now… I mean who likes to miss out on great things your friends or family are doing? Moving across the Atlantic definitely increased my FOMO by about 100%. Don’t get me wrong- I realize that I am also having amazing experiences my friends and family are not having. I’m not at all complaining about living in Germany, just simply stating that with all of the social media outlets these days, it’s much easier to actually see what you’re missing out on and that just makes it harder.
I get the occasional twinge of homesickness here and there. When I hear a song that reminds me of a specific person or place, eating certain foods, conversations… anything can trigger a momentary spell of missing home. However, in my first 2 months in Germany, I have yet to have a break down (I’m sure it’s coming..) and for the most part have been totally fine.
Yesterday, my former roommate and one of my best friends in this world got engaged to an amazing man. After it happened, another friend who was with her called me and gave the phone to Emily. She didn’t know it was me on the phone and as soon as she figured it out we both started crying. We haven’t talked on the phone in over 2 months and hearing her voice and then hearing her say she’s engaged.. that just triggered it.
I was Emily’s roommate when she met Matt and when they started dating, so I sort of got to experience all of the “firsts” with her. She would come home from their dates and tell me all about them. We would sit on our twin beds in the bedroom that we shared and I’d help her formulate words as they texted back and forth. I got to see the first 8 months of their relationship firsthand, and got to know Matt really well in the process.
Both of their families, as well as all of their friends, were there to celebrate with them after Matt proposed. I was on Facebook today looking at pictures and it hit me how sad I was that I wasn’t there. I can picture it pretty well in my head- Emily crying and laughing and being so excited to have all of her loved ones around her, but it’s not the same as being there.
I realized I’m going to have a lot of these moments in the coming months. I already know that I’m missing 3 other weddings that I would love to be at, one that I was asked to be in the bridal party for. Then there’s birthdays, family events, holidays, friend reunions… It’s hard enough to be so far away from your loved ones and these special days just remind us of how much we miss these people.
However, I know I am in the right place. As much as it killed me to miss seeing Emily get engaged, I love my life here in Germany and I know God purposely has me here. Moving to Aschau was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made- but with big leaps come trials, as well. Missing out on things from home is just one of them I have to face!
I couldn’t be happier for Emily and Matt. I can’t wait to see what God has in store for their life together and how He will be glorified through their marriage! Congrats to the future Mr. & Mrs. Price!
Love you, Em!